You know when someone tells you something, and it seems so simple you wonder how you didn’t realise it before. For me, one of those eureka moments came to me in a CBT session. We were going over what I could do to bring myself up when I’m feeling like the most unimportant, worthless, miserable human being on the planet and how to make myself come back down to earth when my thoughts are racing 100 miles per second and I’m convinced I’m the best thing since sliced bread. And what was this simple observation? I hear you cry. Well, here it is:
“When you’re feeling down, speed things up and when you’re feeling too high, slow things down.”
Basically, when I’m down I have to become more active, get out there and do more things. And when I’m up, I decrease the amount of things I’m doing and ultimately calm myself down. I’m guessing the majority of you will think well duh, but, for some reason, this thought hadn’t formed in my head. I was so busy looking at all the intricate little details such as triggers, warning signs and general behaviours when I’m in a certain mood, that I never looked at the bigger picture. I didn’t realise a general change of pace may be what I need.
That eureka CBT session was a month ago and I have to say my new little simple statement seems to be working. I haven’t felt this stable in a very long time. Granted, I have been on holiday for 3 out of 4 weeks but that in itself still had some challenges for my mood, as well as the fact that I decreased my medication dosage just before I went away. It seems I can finally look out for the warning signs and speed up or slow down accordingly as well as not being too harsh on myself when things start to slip. I’m sure that’s what I’ve been trying to do for a very long time but it’s only now working…… Yes 🙂
However, I know I can’t get too complacent. I still don’t know if this simple statement will pop into my head if I have a severe mood change, especially when I finally come off my medication. But I guess I’ll figure that out when I get there. For now, I’ll enjoy being friends with my brain again.